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Fun link go see....


I am very sad today... I was last night too.
Trying hard to balance it with victory of Obama and Dina Titus
but really I hate everything I am bound to.

I want to run away.

Tonight I will go to the grotto meeting and listen to the arrogant young men and envy their health and bodies and encourage them to go - explore... and I will suck in deeply of the excitement and life and wish it was mine again.

I have such wonderful memories of sucking clean water from a stone in the deep recesses of a cave in Indiana. How sweet the water and the company was so fitting. Mike who was huge and suffered greatly to crawl back into these places with me, Mac who hated the mud and getting dirty, Mark who like me was at home soaking wet and mud covered.... all of us thristy beyond comprehension taking turns squeezing between each other's sweaty muddy bodies to take turns to suck the water from the stone slightly above us. Those men are my loves - those moments are my life. Yes I will go tonight knowing I can't go with these men but add to them the passion - go -oh yeah please go... enjoy those secret moments and tell me what you can of it.

My cats crawled close to me last night as I slept. They always know when I need them to.