I have this shot with some of the other grandkids on the bridge.
How exactly like life it is.
There they go .. your children and then your grandchildren off to be whatever they end up being.
You can offer up values - you can instill limits for a time but ultimately you have very little to say about if they will be kind or vicious, good or evil, workers or slackers but always the bridge leads back to you.

There is a lot of distance to cover and you just can't cover it all.
Some crazy old charismatic leader once quoted that you could only do all (you could do) and stand ...

Life is painful - grab those moments that are not because basically it is just painful.
As I stood in the hospital this weekend I realized how much more the percentage of my life I will spend here as my husband and I grow older. I already spend too much time there. I really take time every day to vow to myself I will not be bitter when the time comes - I have so many times begged God to end this ridiculous life I have in exchange for others... but God (or whatever diety controls this mess - if any) has never let me in on the secret of that exchange. I really hope I have the courage to walk into the desert and disapear. I respect Gilbert for that- a lot.
I am so tired. I would take that walk today if I could fix the mess that today brings - but I guess it is always something... some major task left undone... how utterly insignificant we are really.

I hope today brings resolution to a least a few.
Hare Krishna (or insert your own words of prayer mine alwyas sound so very hollow!)